End Chapter 2... Chapter 3

Everyone always says how a child will change your world. Some even go as far as telling you that your life is over. It’s funny you know.. I’ve jumped out of planes, moved out of state on a whim, toured with a band from age 16, and ridden my Harley half way across the country. However, I’ve never had so many willing people come forward to warn me of impending doom until now.

What is it about becoming a parent that compels the masses to act this way? Could it really be that bad? There’s no way.. it can’t be. Is it the world that’s crazy or is it just me? I will say that receiving all this “feedback” has actually been pretty motivating. It makes me want to really dig deep, step up, and show the world that though it may have been your experience.. it doesn’t also have to be mine.

It did get me thinking though.. what do I value now that may have to take a backseat to my son or daughter? My free time? Easy. The freedom to come and go as I please? Okay. My relationship? Wow… that one hurts.

Yes, of course this experience will bond Kelsey and I more than any other. Yes, it will force us to work together more than ever before. Regardless, I have come to terms with this truth.. moving forward, as great as it may be, it will never again be what it is now.

A sense of heartache overcame me and I can’t help but feel like we are closing the door, or turning the page, on something with so much life left in it.

We’re lucky. We’ve been fortunate enough to do and experience so much together.. that first jump out of a plane, she jumped with me. That move to another state, I met her because of it. The Harley ride half way across the country.. she was on the back, arms out, knees in the breeze, smiles for miles..

This “truth” has been the only negative experience that I’ve had because of this pregnancy. I found myself questioning if we had made the right decision of starting a family? Did we choose the right time? Should we have seen more? Done more? Should I have given the question of, “why do I want to be a father?” more thought. It’s been so good.. why ruin a good thing.

If you’ve had the fortune of meeting Kelsey, you’ll know that she tends to keep to herself. Nothing is ever urgent, “things will figure themselves out”, she doesn’t like to make a scene, and she never wants to be the center of attention. To be honest, the combination of her personality and my “go get em’, make it impossible to be ignored” attitude has caused it’s fair share of hiccups in our relationship.

With that being said, everything I just mentioned began to change at our first doctor visit. We got through the exciting first ultrasound, found out we almost had twins (more on that later.. maybe), got to hear the heartbeat for the first time, and then were asked the usual, “any questions?”. To my surprise, there was Kelsey with a list of questions, using words I’d never heard, out there gettin’ em’ and making it impossible to be ignored. I was blown away by the person I saw sitting in that chair.

That’s when I knew we had made the right decision, we chose the right time. There is nothing left to see or anything left to do. That’s when I knew that this little 8 week old human definitely would change everything, that they’d end our lives as we know them, and that they’d succeed where I have failed. That has been the most positive experience I’ve had because of this pregnancy… watching a woman become a mother, unbelievable.

So, Chapter 2 is coming to an end… and it was so so good. This book called life just keeps on getting better and I am absolutely hooked. Cheers to discovering all the twists and turns waiting for us in Chapter 3… I cannot wait.