Fatherhood

Kelsey has been pregnant for 38 and one half weeks now.

As I analyze where I stand and how I feel entering this new role, I am confronted with both relief and uncertainty. On the one hand, I’m reaping the rewards of the lessons and opportunities I’ve taken advantage of, while on the other, I’m fearing the unknown consequences of those I’ve rejected.

I’m excited to encourage and invest in whatever passions my child manifests in their life.. I’m also constantly searching for the courage to invest in my own. I want to equip my little one with all the gear they will need to climb the mountains they encounter.. and at the same time am finding my own way to a glimpse above the clouds. I look forward to teaching and sharing all that I am.. while also questioning whether or not I will be enough.

To this day I don’t believe the full magnitude of what’s to come has really hit me and I am undecided on whether or not that is a good thing. There have been few situations in life that have highlighted my greatest strengths and weaknesses as well as this one has… and we haven’t even begun.

Overall, I am present and I am proud of the investment I have made in myself, in my relationships, in my finances, and in my growth. I feel mentally and emotionally prepared for what’s to come. I will be strong, I will be steady, and when that moment comes, I will be ready to enter into fatherhood.